Depression kills.  It doesn’t kill the same way terminal cancer or diabetes complications do, but it kills.  It kills in the weirdest of ways:  by twisting your mind in such a way that killing yourself makes a lot of sense.  I am no psychiatry or psychology expert, but I have been dealing with diagnosed major depressive disorder for the better part of 9 years.

I originally wasn’t going to post about the suicide of Chester Bennington, just like I chose not to post about the suicide of Chris Cornell, but given the grief this has caused in my Facebook newsfeed, I am taking the opportunity to educate and destigmatize.

I am no expert in 90s music, either, but I did grow up in the 90s.  I am aware of all the articles out there outlining how the music of the 90s is undoubtedly the most depressing.  And it is alarming, to a great degree, as depression rates in the USA have skyrocketed (especially in the generation that grew up in the 90s).  It is very alarming, that, for the first time since the 1930s, life expectancy in the USA is shorter (largely in part to suicide).  It is also worth noting, that suicide is now the 10th leading cause of death in the USA.

Major depression is a mental illness.  A mental illness is an illness like any other:  cancer, diabetes, fibromyalgia, and heart disease, to name a few.  I won’t go into all the details of how the brain changes with depression and other mental illnesses, but suffice it to say that a picture of a brain with depression is very different from that of a healthy brain.  Mental illness is not your fault, just like cancer, multiple sclerosis, or epilepsy aren’t your fault.

Another disease that very commonly co-occurs with mental illness is substance dependence, be it alcohol, recreational or prescription drugs.  When substance dependence is present with mental illness, it makes treating one or the other a little more challenging, especially when the substance in question is a mind-altering substance.  (Substance dependence may also make psychiatric medications be less effective.)

From what I understand, Chester Bennington suffered from both mental illness and substance abuse.  Two illnesses that can distort your thoughts.  Another aggravation is that when a loved one commits suicide, the likelihood of suicide increases.  (It is known that children of parents who have committed suicide are way more likely to commit suicide, and so on.)

I don’t claim to know what was going on in Bennington’s mind, but he suffered from depression, substance abuse, and his friend Chris Cornell took his own life.  Reportedly, Bennington killed himself on Chris Cornell’s birthday.  Perhaps he spiraled down on a substance fueled depression missing his friend that led him to kill himself?  We might never know.  Perhaps he was isolated from his community of people that made him feel valuable and worthy.

Another thing that has popped up in my newsfeed, which I think is important to deal with, is the possibility of their influences by Satanic rites and other religious/spiritual practices that may be of demonic nature.  Fr. Amorth, a leading exorcist from the Vatican, had said in the past that sometimes, differentiating between mental illness and demonic possession is very hard, but demonic possession is not as common as mental illness.  I don’t know Bennington’s or Cornell’s dabblings in demonic practices.  It is very dangerous and stigmatizing to claim that severe mental illness is of demonic nature.

What is for sure is that Cornell and Bennington carved their way into their fans’ hearts, and will be sorely missed.  It is very sad that they have succumbed to their illnesses, months apart from each other, especially when effective treatment is available.

May they both rest in peace.

If you’re struggling with depression, please seek medical help.  I can’t emphasize this enough.  Also, if you’re struggling with substance abuse, seek medical help.  If you’re in the USA and are in emotional crisis, call the crisis line at 1-800-273-8255, available 24/7.

There are many aspects to keeping your mind free of junk.  Today, specifically, I will talk about why I don’t follow the news.

The main reason I don’t follow the news is plain and simple:  News are almost always depressing to my already depressed state of mind.  They make me cry and feel shitty, so I just don’t follow anymore.

Sure, I still watch TV, and read news on the internet, but at my own pace and discretion.  There is no point in bringing yourself down to a depressed state, especially over how many news outlets are not even saying the truth or manipulate the news to make you believe one thing or the other.

I will occasionally pay particular interest over one story, and follow it, but for the most part, I don’t follow the news.  If you have been following my blog for a couple of years, you may have noticed I tend to follow news of shootings/mass shootings.  These particular events fascinate me.

First, why do people do that?  and second, who the heck do the media think they are making armchair diagnoses about whether this shooter was affected by “name-your-mental-or-neurological-disease”?  The media, while generally good at researching, are still no experts in mental health or neurology.  In my experience, they tend to speculate over what was going on in the shooter’s mind, without really knowing what is going on in the shooter’s mind.

If the shooter were military or prior service, he or she immediately gets tagged with PTSD.  If the shooter happens to be autistic, are we dealing with an epidemic of violent autistic people?  If they can’t find out much about the shooter, it’s probably an unstable, depressed individual that was looking for attention.  Really?  Most of the time, mentally ill individuals are most likely to be victims than perpetrators.

When it comes to politics, in my opinion, they don’t fairly follow the different political factions, opinions, candidates, etc.  It seems at times they are out to smear certain candidates and bring up others.

When it comes to world-wide news, they only cherry-pick what they think makes a sensationalistic story, instead of giving the global overview of what really may be going on.

So, being fed up by the news, and trying to keep my emotions a little more stable, I don’t follow the news.