All in all, my 2016 wasn’t bad.  Yes, there was mourning the passing of beloved celebrities, far too many of them, but life goes on.  Yes, I ended up in the hospital for a couple of weeks or so, but I worked at what I needed and got better.  I started cosmetology school.  I fell more deeply in love with my boyfriend.  I spent more time with my son.  I adopted a new cat (my boyfriend’s). I learned more about myself.  I took care of me, even though it meant overspending a bit.  Yes, being I debt bites, but I did what I thought was best for me.  I reconnected with some cousins through Facebook. 

So all in all, the positives outweigh the negatives.

It did feel, however, like the year of “keep-going”.  I pushed myself to the limits a few times, and I might just start 2017 by taking a prolonged break from school, because life gets stressful and complicated and then I don’t know how to handle all the curves it throws, often resulting in a melt down of sorts.  I feel myself going in that direction and need to take care of myself first.  School can wait.  Life can’t.  And so it goes.  Keep pushing. Keep going.  And as long as I can put a few things on pause trying to figure out what’s next and how to handle everything, I just keep going.

Here’s to a more balanced 2017!  2016 was better than 2015, which was better than 2014.  I hope the trend continues!

But not just for me and mine, also for you and yours.

If I learned anything in 2016 is that a positive attitude and positive perspective helps a lot.  I also learned that in some cases, it best to run over the cute little squirrel, to put it in one of my doctor’s terms, as sometimes, people get in the way and you can’t or shouldn’t stop or deviate from your planned course.

If you’ve been following my blog, you know I hate the holidays.  They remind me of all kinds of sad stuff, including the fact that I’m a lonely person who doesn’t want to be alone.

Today I went to the hospital for an EMG of my wrists with my boyfriend (he’s visiting right now).  I saw Ned, a fellow veteran whom I had not seen since he moved away from the city.  After exchanging pleasantries, he asked if I was ready for the holiday season.  I said I wasn’t, since it brings so much junk into my head.  He could relate, but we all the same wished each other a happy holiday season.

So, what am I doing to plan for the holidays? 

I’m doing my best to move it a few days and not give it as much meaning as I normally do.  

I’m making it all about others, instead of about me.

I’m concentrating on school (which is going great, btw.)

I’m not getting Christmas presents (except for my boyfriend and son), so I keep expectations about presents for myself low and fair.

As grinchy as it makes me feel, I’m not decorating my home, except maybe for a wreath on the door.

I am seeing my psych team to help keep myself in check, and get the extra support I might need, as winter holidays are a known trigger.

Will post more as I figure out more details, but this is how it’s looking for now.